I'm a 30 year old male who came very close to starting female hormones this year but decided not to do so. Each option will resolve on its respective date to 'yes' if I wish, with the benefit of hindsight, that I had taken hormones in 2025. If on that date I don't regret my 2025 decision, the option will resolve 'no'.
Reasons I was considering transitioning:
It would suit my feminine personality and style
I wanted to be hot, male body does not appeal to me
My preferred physical intimacy is to be touched/stimulated and HRT could maximize that sensitivity
I enjoy receiving attention, have a feminine-typical type of ADHD
In terms of relationships I am a boyfailure
HRT might make me more open to dating men, that would make dating a lot easier for me (I'm currently heteroflexible)
I'm likely going to be a single parent, it feels more fitting to be a single mom than a single dad
Reasons I decided not to transition:
Complicates my parenting plans (I would have to freeze lots of sperm for IVF, fairly expensive)
I'm worried that being a trans role model as a parent will increase the risk of my children developing gender dysphoria and damaging their own fertility
Trans women experience lower income after transitioning
I'm still hoping for a strong relationship with a cis woman and think that will be easier if I'm a boy
Afraid of becoming an old woman, feel more comfortable becoming an old man
I am comfortable wearing boy clothes and using boy pronouns
Worried about psychological risks: becoming maladapted to my current career and lifestyle, becoming unhealthily obsessed with my body appearance, becoming too hedonistic
I don't want to complicate relationships with my parents and church community - I could make it work, but it would be a hassle
If I change my mind and start taking hormones in 2025 then all options resolve N/A.
I just found this comment on Reddit saying that single fathers do better than single mothers. I like this perspective. When I imagine myself as a single mother I imagine myself as sensitive and vulnerable but when I imagine myself as a single father I imagine myself as an effective (but gender nonconforming) patriarch.

https://old.reddit.com/r/Natalism/comments/1ndetwz/womens_careers_and_fertility/ndks3j0/